Moved.

(for the time being)


http://gervynmoh.livejournal.com



Byebye blogger!

I am the stupid.

Mervyn mervyn mervyn, you could've been more tact-fucking-ful you know!
ARG! Something had gotten over me and I don't know what is that something.
So much for getting carried away and going on and on. And arg! I guess I was too blunt and straight.

This will have to go, I can't be like this, I really cannot be like this. I should stop being such a long-winded fuckhead and like omg.. I'm sorry! It's not like I'm in a very right position to preach to you what is right and what is wrong anyway.. WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU MERVYN?!

I know I've let you down my friend and I really didn't mean to upset or even hurt you. I really really and sincerely want to apologize.
I hope you'll accept my apologies.
Arg! omg! I am such a fucking idiot!

Sigh.

I don't want to lose you.

The fucking thin red line.

That's it.
I have crossed that line. Yet again.
I don't know this shit anymore.
I am losing it.
Officially losing it.
I need some form of enlightenment, I need answers as well.
Why time consumers can only remain time consumers even when they seemed like they could be upgraded to something more?
I think I may have come to a conclusion that I am too nice.
This is nothing bad, it's just how you want to look at things.
Eventually I know I'd achieve so much more,
BUT after so long, and so often the same, it gets on my nerves.
Sigh.. oh well.

And I've gotten a 1 - 0, not in my favour though for monday. What ever happened to the supposed movie plan? Lucky thing I saw it coming, I went with the guys to catch it before getting punk'd. But somehow, I still don't feel triumph.

Why?

Lucky thing late rendezvous still goes on, if not that's it. But damn, I'd still need to look for a daylight chick. And a job too. Portfolios and CVs to be up soonest! Hur.... Bloody deadlines.

Pimpin ain't easy

Check this GT200 out man, exactly the same model as Ladytron only it's waaaayyyyy PIMPED! Click on the picture itself to view the x-large version.



LV leather balls, genuine or not, I don't think it really matters?

Ownage.

"House after house, just like car after car,
You see club after club, And it all seems so far."

Avoid at ALL cost!

I think for the past erm... 1year plus, it was rather apparent that I have a strong ability to, like a magnet, attract messed up and complicated people into my life? Like I'm one of those Heroes people with abilities? Ok no I exaggerated on that, I guess it just so happen that you know, people whom I've come across and have met (somehow) all have emotional baggages with them? It's funny yet depressing. Well I was talking to one of my friend that now I've become like some sort of listener because all this while, I have listened to God knows how many of the ladies telling me about trouble with the exes? All of them are like pretty much the same, I'm sure I could just type one set and then the format would all be the same? Hur. And the funny thing was, for a few of them I remember telling myself that this girl could be it but I somehow helped more and as a result forgot about the initial and supposed dating plans that I have thought of lol. Not that it was bad, not that I'm complaining because I strongly feel that what I've gained now is definitely more worthwhile. Oh ya disclaimer, I'm not saying it's a mutual feeling with the ladies, that I wouldn't know but I guess obviously not. It was all on my part but that was how I felt, at the very least. Michelle said that I shouldn't make messed up people as potential targets, ya duh I know that but how was I to know from the start. Girls, put post it on your head please, so that us boys would know, thank you very much. Anyhow, all of these made me remember something. Something I've heard from a certain someone say around 2 years ago? Jen used to tell me to stay away from messed up people. Of course I did not listen to her.

So now here I am, being very free, was able to come out with this chunk of I would say nothingness because at the end of the day, I don't think it changes anything in my life so as my supervisor in the police force would always say, Life goes on..... Truly boss, truly.

And sidetrack, I wanna have hair like Jim Sturgess in Across the Universe, woot! Sibei inspired... Soonest..



"Hey Jude don't let me down
You have found her now go and get her
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better"

I have served my term

I remembered the anxiety on 14th March 2 years ago, the uncertainty of enlisting. The typical sian-ness every guy feels when they know that they are about to contribute their 2 years, some 1 year 10 months to the nation. The bald period. And then plus the fact that everyone around me went into the army, I do not know what to expect. I used to hear people telling me it's good that I've gotten police, things like "very slack!" was a common thing to hear from them. Now that I've been through it, without a doubt, the physical training comparing to the army dudes is definitely less taxing. But I'd say handling the public was really a chore, no offence public! (lol)

Time flew faster than Nathan Petrelli but nope, it sure doesn't feel like it was just yesterday. Why do people use that kind of term anyway? It's just me I guess, I'm there. Ha. So yes, I'm clearing leave now and I will soon officially regain my freedom and status as a member of public some time mid next month.

I... AM.... SCARED.

I think this time, I'll be facing a bigger uncertainty and it's like woah no more escaping! Gonna be harder to maintain. Nevertheless, a happy boy still! Freedom!
Part and parcel of life...

Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a starter home. Choose dental insurance, leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose your future. But why would anyone want to do a thing like that?

- Trainspotting

Oh well.. I'll really need a job by then, or if not then freelance jobs, do come in ok? Mervyn needs the moolahs. Bangkok in May, please do not let any thing clash with this holiday plan, because we all need to get out of this little island and have our holiday! ERP is killing us all! LOL

Bosozoku!

I've recently completed the book Yakuza Moon(reviewed by some chap) by Shoko Tendo and I really enjoyed the book. The book kinda got me all interested in the cultures of 'Yanki' (or simply young punks in japanese term I think?) I've decided to make a search on it and I found so many other interesting stuff along with it.

One of them being the motorcycle gangs and their culture and they actually have a proper term for it, aka BOSOZOKU! It's really cool that they have such strong culture, even on motorcycles groups/gangs and the type of clothings to go with the look (kamikaze suits with embroideries, damn cool). Oh and look at how they've all modified their rides, kamikaze balls!

I've gotten this from wikipedia..

Bōsōzoku (暴走族, Bōsōzoku? "violent running tribe") is a Japanese subculture associated with motorcycle clubs and gangs and sometimes also with car clubs like the one called Yankee which in Japanese means punk. The word bōsōzoku is often applied to these gangs, mainly comprised of young men who share an interest in modifications (often illegal) for cars and motorcycles, such as removing the mufflers so that more noise is produced. Bōsōzoku also engage in dangerous or reckless driving, such as weaving in traffic, not wearing motorcycle helmets, and running red lights. Japanese police call them Maru-So (police code マル走). Another activity is shinai bōsō (市内暴走) speeding in city streets, not usually for street racing but more for thrills. With many cars (or bikes) involved, the leading one is driven by the sentōsha (先頭車), the leader, who is responsible for the event and is not allowed to be overtaken. Others keep a lookout for side and rear cars/bikes. Although they do race, some groups prefer to simply bōsō, or violently run. They modify their exhaust systems to be extra loud and drive through suburbs at speeds of 5–10 miles an hour, waving imperial Japanese flags and shouting obscenities, occasionally throwing Molotov cocktails and carrying swords/spears, daring bystanders to challenge them. Bōsōzoku members tend to be perceived as criminals and misfits, and were first seen in the 1950s as the Japanese automobile industry expanded rapidly. The first bōsōzoku were known as kaminari-zoku (雷族 "Lightning Tribes"). There are bōsōzoku clubs throughout Japan, including female bike gangs (レディース "ladies"), identified by their stylish fashion and customised motorcycles. Members take part in mass rallies and have had gang wars amongst themselves. As a fashion and youth subculture, bōsōzoku are subject to increasing state and police pressure.

Here's the link to the wiki site anyway if any of you may want to check the whole thing out:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bosozoku

There's this movie called Kamikaze Girls and it's about a girl who's into Lolita and another girl being a Yanki. Not bad at all. It was actually released quite awhile ago, perhaps 2004? But since I've only found out about this whole Yanki culture like recently, pardon the slowness yo..

Ok that's all for now, I can't believe I'm actually blogging from my station lol. Good night or good morning, whatever.

Millie

Caught jumper with jon and this was print screened from the jumper website, omg rachel bilson is one hottie! :D



And then earlier on I saw this 125CC beauty at MAH motor. Would you pay 6 grand for it? I would, if I've the extra money.



Last but not least, Ladytron is now completed!

Will you, won't you, be the one I'll always know?

VCS Pengerang Trip 08

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Click the above link to view the photos taken during the trip.

Riding into M'sia was a very different experience.
On the highway and the pretty much more urbanized area, it was still ok, it's just like riding in S'pore only with slightly faster moving vehicles. ((Disclaimer, lol)) Well I am certainly not a tourer and this was my first overseas riding so I may not get everything right. Just sharing the experience in my very own perspective and opinions yes.. (meaning noob haha)

Second link was very nice. No traffic on a Sunday morning and we could all fly! Yes in our very own Vespa way. Gathering at this erm.. I forgot what it was called but yeah, place with a lot of local bikes. Should be some universal meeting place for all. Sports bike, Tourers, Dirt enthusiast, you name it! Travelling was a breeze and as it was still somewhat a populated area, it wasn't that bad. Managed to catch a bit of break before heading off towards Kota Tinggi.

The road to Kota Tinggi were kind of tedious. We went through the rural areas and it was just roads meandering within the tall grasses area. There were no street lamps there so riding in the night is strictly not advisable especially for motorcycle. Everywhere around you is just forest and forest of palm trees (i think so?) and not forgetting, the crazy cars. At least the roads were proper tar roads, only with random pot holes every now and then. But they're usually at the side so pretty much ok, problem only comes if the crazy cars want to get pass you. It's only a 2 lane road and its for both directions, the double white line is of no issue to them and they cross the line and go whenever they can. So whenever you see two cars going against one another, the bikes better stick to the side to make some space for one of the cars to squeeze in between. Some of us were quite new to riding together in M'sia so we started out blocking a lot of vehicles. They must have thought that we were so damn annoying. Travelling at 80km/h hogging the road. Heh oh well. Oh ya btw, uncountable amounts of road kills. I saw some dead furry thing, no idea monkey or dog or cat? There were dead birds, a lot of them and even monitor lizards. Or some kinda lizard-like thing. Rats and one saw a dead python. Free animal carcasses, damn.

After which we finally got closer and closer to our destination. I forgot whats that place called, I asked my friend and she told me the name but I forgot. It's quite hard to memorize all the names of these places, besides they were in Malay, which makes it slightly more difficult. We didn't really go to Pengerang, as my friend also said that the place is pretty much a dead town. Nothing much going on there, so the main objective of this trip is to go to the small town which is slightly before Pengerang to enjoy the wonderful LOBSTER! We had so much of good food and it only summed up to about 50RM per person, worth every bit of it.

The ride back was a torture. Going through the same route but under the hot sun and when it's about 3 plus pm, just after lunch, lethargic is the word. A couple of us nearly fell asleep while riding, including myself haha. It was also mind challenging, have to keep concentration on the cars passing by and also the pot holes. The scenery which doesn't change for miles made the ride mundane as well. Seriously, it was out to kill us! As it is, 100 over km, we're complaining this and that. I really have to salute to those people who could ride all the way to KL, or even Thailand. Amazing. Truly amazing.

When we finally reached Johor Bahru, it was probably around 5 something already? The traffic was packed, I believed everyone had already finished work and was on their way home? Also those S'poreans, like us, whom had already enjoyed themselves and were heading home. The traffic jam was terrible, all the way to the custom and it was then when Ladytron had to give me problem. I could not power her up and in order to maintain the engine, I have to hold my throttle which is ridiculous because I'm stucked at the custom. Those who have been stucked in the jam before should know that it's not a good time to have a failing engine. The system is such that if you can't cut in, everyone else around you is going to cut in and all these bikers all had to horn and horn which I felt that it wasn't helping at all. It only irritates you and distracts you.

Ended up pushing all the way till I left custom checkpoint and throttled all the way. It's like I can't stop because if I do, Ladytron dies? The guys were still waiting for me at the road shoulder so managed to get a bit of help from them. They said that it could be due to the bumpy road that caused something inside to loosened. After tightening it seemed fine but it still feels kinda weird, even today. The throttling feels different, got to send it to Piaggio later on. I hope Ladytron is all strong and well.

That's all, Goodnight.

"Patriarch on a Vespa..."

Across the Universe

I looked through the entire 06 and 07 post(more of 06 post) and one, I realised how little I blog nowadays. Two, life seemed to be so interesting then, ups and downs, colourful and although filled with quite a bit of unpleasant happenings, at least there were still something worth mentioning in http://cantstopthebumrush.blogspot.com. And it seemed like I used to look forward to every damn thing, now I'm just to damn lazy to care about anything lol. Partly due to my work, I can't really blog about things that happened during my shift, Official Secrecy Act. That cuts a whole big chunk out of my life already. There was a post in which I mentioned that I went 100km/h on yihan's mazda 3, I wanted to slap myself upon reading that. There was also one whereby I was so looking forward to being an Alpha Police boy, now I just want to finish my national service asap. I've changed. My friends have changed as well. We are all getting older. No shit sherlock. Well it's 08 now, and I know it'll get better! After all, ORD oh~! Ah yes and Ladytron!

"Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup,
They slither while they pass, they slip away across the universe.
Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my opened mind,
Possessing and caressing me.

Jai Guru Deva Om

Nothing's gonna change my world,
Nothing's gonna change my world.

mages of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes,
They call me on and on across the universe.
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box,
They stumble blindly as they make their way across the universe.

Jai Guru Deva Om

Nothing's gonna change my world,
Nothing's gonna change my world.

Sounds of laughter, shades of earth are ringing
Through my open mind inciting and inviting me.
Limitless, undying love, which shines around me like a million suns,
And calls me on and on across the universe.

Jai Guru Deva Om

Nothing's gonna change my world,
Nothing's gonna change my world.

Jai Guru Deva..."

VCS Meet-Up @ the West Side

"Because it's not love, But it's still a feeling..."